S E V E N L I E S . N E T

Maybe it hurts more because I thought it would be easy.

rule #1: never blog while on ambien

But, you know, here I am anyway. Loopy on my nightly little blue pill that helps me stay asleep rather than allow my brain to wake me up at 2:00 AM and leave me lying in bed trying to tell my thoughts to SHUT UP. Iโ€™m not even sure where this site is going to go. I just miss the old halcyon days of Greymatter vs Moveable Type. I donโ€™t miss the drama of LiveJournal, no sirree. But I do miss online journaling. And this time, I donโ€™t plan on leaving out the uglies.

Donโ€™t get me wrong, I have fun, I enjoy doing things. But my mind is constantly battling many issues daily. Iโ€™m seeing a therapist regularly (on the good months, itโ€™s once a month, but sometimes more), and Iโ€™m working with a 12 step program to help curb my issues with binge eating. Hell, writing this right now has me so on edge Iโ€™m about to go into the kitchen and eat something. I canโ€™t though, todayโ€™s been a good day. First day abstinent. FIRST DAY. I tried before but this was the first time I was able to stick with it. Tomorrowโ€™s another day with another set of hurdles but Iโ€™ll deal with that when it comes to that point.

For now, Iโ€™m rapidly sinking into sleepytime land. Good night all.


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